I was just doing what I always do... getting my annual check-ups. Life has been so busy with no signs of letting up. Although mammograms are no fun, I know it is imperative that I get checked out regularly. Mom has had breast cancer and now two of her sisters have died with breast cancer being a contributing factor. This year, I didn't feel any kind of premonition or warning. I just went to my regular appointment. The phone call came while I was in St. Louis... they found something. A mass. A mass which was surgically removed yesterday. I am still on some major pain meds and feel like my head is in a fog, but I wanted to write. I want to try to share my feelings.
Everyone tells me not to be afraid. Funny... fear is not one of the emotions I'm feeling. Uncertainity maybe. Not knowing stinks. I will get my lab results on Wednesday. But I already know that I can handle whatever comes my way. God is my peace... my refuge... my ever present help in the time of need. I feel so much peace and I am so grateful for that. God is awesome! He has put me in a win/win/win situation. If its cancer - and He heals me... I win! If it's not cancer... I win! If its cancer - and He doesn't heal me... I still win! Amazing...
Everyone tells me not to be afraid. Funny... fear is not one of the emotions I'm feeling. Uncertainity maybe. Not knowing stinks. I will get my lab results on Wednesday. But I already know that I can handle whatever comes my way. God is my peace... my refuge... my ever present help in the time of need. I feel so much peace and I am so grateful for that. God is awesome! He has put me in a win/win/win situation. If its cancer - and He heals me... I win! If it's not cancer... I win! If its cancer - and He doesn't heal me... I still win! Amazing...
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Amanda
Tim Pedigo sings a song, "Either Way We Win." It speaks of two of your "wins." I thought of that as I read your e-mail today. But to deal with this news appropriately, I had to think about what "Sis. Evangeline" might say. And as I re-read your e-mail with that thought it mind, I realized the 3rd win came from "Sis. E"!!!
I am so proud of you in all your many facets - you have made an indelible impression on my life and on the lives of my family.
We will hold you up in prayer!
Love, Marjorie Kinnee